Selena Gomez opens with the symptoms that led to a "psychotic breakdown"
The singer and actor was treated for psychosis in 2018 and shares her experience in a new documentary.
Singer, actor and founder of beauty brandSelena Gomez The new documentary is so raw and honest that it considered never to release it.Selena Gomez: My mind and me Documents the young woman of 30 yearsfight with its mental health, including his diagnosis of bipolar disorder and an experience of psychosis in 2018.
"Because I have the platform I have, it's a bit like I sacrifice myself a little for a bigger purpose,"she saidRolling stone Before the film released on November 4 on Apple TV +. "I don't want it to seem dramatic, but I was almost not going to go out that. The honest truth of God, a few weeks ago, I was not sure to do it."
In the interview, Gomez spoke of her "psychotic break", the symptoms she felt and how she learned to live with her diagnosis later. Read more to find out what led to her most serious mental problems and why she decided to share all of this with her fans.
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Gomez started to feel "not in control" when she was at the beginning of the twenty.
Gomez explained toRolling stone that before a diagnosis of bipolar disorder (which she shared publicly two years ago), she had thoughts and feelings that she did not understand.
"I will be very open with everyone on this subject: I went to four treatment centers",Only murders in the building According to Star. "I think that when I started to strike my beginning of my twenties, it was when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I did not control what I felt, that it was Really great or really bad. "
She went through periods of mania and depression, without knowing that they were symptoms of bipolar disorder. For example, she felt that she needed to buy everyone she knows a car. "I have a gift and I wanted to share it with people," she explained that she felt at the time.
Then there were the stockings. "It would start with depression, then he would go to isolation," recalls Gomez. "So it was just that I couldn't leave my bed I would be in bed, to the place where walking at the bottom would make me out of breath. "She said that she had never tried to put an end to her life, but" thought that the world would be better if [she] was not there ".
She "heard voices" and was finally treated for psychosis.
In 2018, Gomez had an episode of psychosis and heard voices. AccordingRolling stone, she does not remember much of this period, but she spent time in a treatment center where she has experienced paranoia for months. She described the end of this time as "leaving psychosis".
It was reported byPeople in 2018 thatGomez had asked for treatment For "his emotional problems in progress".
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He was prescribed drugs with side effects.
Gomez was diagnosed with a bipolar disorder and put medication to treat it. But, because of the drugs, "there was no more part of me that was there," she said. She asked for help from another doctor, her treatment plan has been changed and was brought to medicines that really worked for her.
"I had to designate myself, essentially, drugs I was doing," said the 30 -year -old. “I had to learn to remember certain words. I would forget where I was when we were talking. It took me a lot of work for me to (a) accept that I was bipolar, but (b) learning to manage this because it was not going to disappear. ""
She shares all of this to help others.
Thanks to his documentary and his philanthropic work, Gomez focuses on the encouragement of others to face their mental health problems. She considers this to be her goal in life.AE0FCC31AE342FD3A1346EBB1F342FCB
"I constantly remember that there is a reason why I am here," she saidRolling stone. "It seems really cheesy when I say it sometimes, but I really don't know how I would be here, simply based on medical stuff and balances in my head and the conversations I had with myself [who were] really dark. " In addition to having a bipolar disorder, Gomez has lupus and had to receive a kidney transplant in 2017 due to autoimmune disease.
She also sees how her experiences have shaped her. "I remember that I would not be there if it was not for the psychotic break, if it was not for my lupus, if it was not for my diagnosis," she said. "I think I would probably be another boring entity that just wants to wear beautiful clothes all the time. I am depressed by thinking of who I would be."
His diagnosis was "a huge weight raised".
Before the publication of her documentary, which reveals certain aspects of Gomez's trip of which she had not spoken publicly before, the star was already a defender of mental health. His efforts includedTalk about mental health on a panel at the White House andundertakes to raise $ 100 million From its rare beauty brand to support access to mental health care in poorly served communities.
"I felt a huge weight that raised me when I discovered," she saidShe ofIts bipolar diagnosis In 2021. "I could breathe deeply and say:" Okay, that explains so much. ""
In the same interview, she said: "My lupus, my kidney transplant, chemotherapy, mental illness, crossing very public sorrows - they were all things that should have honored me. Every time I Crossing something, I was like: "What else? What am I going to face? ""
Gomez continued saying she said to herself in the most difficult moments she was "going to help people".
"This is really what made me move forward," she continued. "There could have been a time when I was not strong enough, and I would have done something to hurt myself."
