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For the first time since the tragic loss of his son 20 weeks in his pregnancy,Chrissy Teigen opened On the sorrow it feels like it continues to plumb. In a deeply moved position on average, published on October 27, the author and the model said frankly how she and husbandJohn Legend We helped cross this difficult period by the kindness of foreigners, how she faced the tragedy and why she chose to share photos of the baby she lost with the public on social media.

In the heartbreaking trial, Teigen described how his diagnosis with the partial abrupt from the placenta had made his pregnancy a complicated and physically taxing one, requiring multiple blood transfusions and constant care. She also reminded the pain she felt when the doctors told her that "it was time to say goodbye" to his unborn child, who called Jack. "Even if I write this now, I can feel pain again," she says. "The oxygen has been placed on my nose and my mouth, and it was the first picture you saw. Finished and complete sadness."

But the pole has also highlighted the Joy Teigen could recover, turning thetragedy she and her husband suffered In something she hopes can help others who cry their own losses. Learn more about why she made the decision to share her painful moment with the world and for more deductible Teigen, checkCelebrities who talked about their depression.

While describing his heartbreaking loss, Teigen wrote that the decision to photograph the hard time was rooted in love - and something she does not regret. "I had asked my mother and my John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was. I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and I did not want them Not having to ask never. He just had to do it., "She wrote. "He hated him. I could say. It did not make sense for him at the time. But I knew I needed to know that moment forever, in the same way I remember reminding us of reminding us of At the end of the aisle, the same thing, I had to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew that I had to share this story. "

Teigen also approached the critic that she received for sharing her loss moment, saying safely that she hoped that images could help others who shared similar losses concern their own grief. "I can not express how much I worry that you hate the photos. How much I care about it that you would not have done," she wrote. "I lived, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos are for anyone only the people who have lived that or are quite curious to wonder what something like this is like. These Photos are only for people who need them. The thoughts of others do not like for me. "

Teigen also wrote about the guilt she feels when she continues to fold down and how difficult it can be difficult to move on. "I cry when I get angry with myself to be too happy. Sometimes I read things that make me laugh to laugh, or see an Instagram pole worthy of a similar form (yes, I left but I'm gone but I'm Always crawling!), "She wrote. "And I always forget that I am no longer pregnant. I hold my belly when I walk. I have a moment to panic when kids jump on my hump nonexistent. The clarity after these moments always make me sad."

But Teigen also explained that even his grief is partly linked to the way she had been happy before her tragic loss - and that she feels guilty of doing so many people share her sadness. "I feel bad that our grief was so public because I've been so public. I was excited to share our news with the world. Stories leading to that were chronic for all," A-T- she writes. "It's hard to watch them now. I was so positive that it would go well. I feel bad that I hurt you. I will always do it."

Apart from deep sorrow, she feels, Teigen also said that "the moments of kindness were nothing less beautiful," Noting how people made him liked since his loss. "I went to a shop where the checkout has silently added flowers to my basket. Sometimes people will clocker me with a note," she wrote.

But she also took the time to recognize that many people experienced a loss similar to that one silently - and hope that her story can help others. "The worst party is to know that there are so many women who will not do these moments of calm joy of foreigners," she continued. "I beg you to share your stories and please be kind to those who would pour their hearts. Be kind in general, as some will not pay them at all."

In a sincere moment, Teigen also described how some people helped to highlight the type of opinion that it does not have to take into account and the recognition of their support. "Foreigners always tell me that life will pass, just differently," she explained. "They tell me to let anyone tell me that it was" the plan of God "or we will have another soon." Thanks to you, I'm going to block this forever. "

As for how it will continue, Teigen explained that its tragic loss will not destroy its merry spirit. "People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart. A hole was certainly done, but he was filled with something that I liked so much," she wrote. "It does not feel empty, this space. He feels full."

Teigen said his family will appreciate the memory of the son, brother and grandson they lost by keeping him almost near the Spirit. "Jack will always be loved, explained to our children as existing in the wind and the trees and the butterflies they see," she wrote. "Thank you very much to all the single people who have gone in their thoughts or went to send us your love and your stories. We are so incredibly lucky." And for advice on what to say about your loved ones in difficult situations, here'sThe worst thing you can tell someone who is mourning.