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From 2005 to 2010, viewers have a look inside thePlayboy Mansion Thanks to the E! reality showThe girls next door. Fascinated fans of the series, because the world of Playboy and the life ofHugh Heffner were so strange and unconventional. But, in the years which, since the show has stopped air, one of the three girlfriends of Hefner at the time and one of the stars ofThe girls next door,Holly Madison, has been widespread on his relations with Hefner, his life situation and the way he was not so carefree that the show that has often made it seem.

Madison opened in detail about his time at the Playboy Mansion in his 2015 bookDown The Labbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Tales Notified by an Old Bunny Playboy. And more recently, at the end of July, she shared on tiktok thatShe suffered from the dysmorphia of the body at the time. She also spoke more about her relationship with Hefner in an April Podcast interview this year. Read it for the latest revelations of Madison about his past life.

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While Madison was with Hefner, she was considered his "main girlfriend", while sheFollowing girls door co-starsKendra Wilkinson andBridget Marquardt were also his girlfriends. Madison was related to Hefner from 2001 to 2008. They broke in part becauseMadison wanted to get married And have children and hefner did not do it. Madison continued to get married and two children with her now the ex-husbandPasquale Rotella. Hefner, who already had four children, marriedCrystal Harris In 2012, they were always together at the time of his death from 2017.

During the 2021 AprilInterview on theCall one's dad Podcast, Madison shared that she felt she was in love with Hefner, but looking at the relationship, she feels differently. At first she thought that living in the Mansion Playboy was a "fun ... a crazy experience" and it was only one of a group of women in rotation. But when she became the "main girlfriend" - a lot, because no one else wanted to be - and hefner was so nice with her and paying it so much attention, she thought differently.

"I started feeling like I'm in love with him, looking in this way, I feel like it's a type of Stockholm syndrome thing, where I felt just as I have Identified with him and he compliments at the beginning, "she says. "And I have just begun to blame all the other problems on other women. As is a miserable situation, but if these other women were not there, it would not be like that." "

"He started to get away more for really stupid things and I just realized, as I can not be here, as this guy is a hole **," says Madison on the podcast. "But even, I felt guilty of leaving. It took time, I had to be interested in another man before finally looking like, I have to pull the plug because I'm not going to cheat." It goes just with all the bombardment tips of love and we will be together forever, and we will be together the rest of my life "and blah, bla, blah, bla. He would compare me in beautifulThe beauty and the Beast, as I have just arrived at this castle. "

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In the interview, Madison explained that once she went to the manor and had sex with hefner for the first time she had the impression of doing something from the situation, so it was All for a reason. "I would almost like locked in this box, in a way, which was not difficult to do there because it is a very worship atmosphere, anyway, and that you are manipulated for me Feel like that, "she said.

She also said she had the impression of scared that she would not be able to go back to the outside world. She tried to have children with Hefner, but it did not happen, that she is grateful for the moment. "My own kind of shame kept me there too. I could not really imagine a life outside there. As I thought," Ok, it's my last stop. If I want to have children, I'll try. 'And when I knew it was not going to be a possibility with him, as if we were trying in vitro and everything. It did not work. I was like: "Ok, well, if I'm not going to have children here it's something I need to think. It's really like a death penalty, in a way. '

InA tiktok video posted on July 24, Madison shared that she felt a body dysmorphism during the time she was involved with Playboy. "For a recent position, I was looking for pictures of me in a rabbit costume," says Madison in the video. "And I fell to the other and remembered a moment in my life where I watched a reading of me in a fashion show and I thought," Oh my God, I need to lose weight. "

She continues: "I share this because I think it could help people realize that sometimes our body dysmorphia is out of graphics. I really want to worry about what I look like what I look like to had the life of my best life, and be as happy as possible, and really enjoy life as much as possible. "

She told him of her disciples that he is "is not worth feeling bad about you." Referring to the picture of her in the rabbit costume that is shown in the background, she says, "I looked at when I looked like this and that I was terrified and I thought I had taken Weight and I thought I was not stuck in my diet and I thought my thighs were huge and I thought, "I have to lose five books at least. And it's ridiculous. I look like a stick. "

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